There simply has to be a better way. I’m posting this as much to vent my frustration as in the vague hope that someone who stumbles upon it might have suggestions, of any sort.
This past week, my friend Mousie and I endeavored on a little spiritual work. Now, this should not have been that taxing. In fact, she did almost all of the work, so the energy output should have been all on her shoulders. Of course, I realize these things are never quite that simple. First, I was in the room, and as a result I was contributing my own energy into the mix. Second, we were working with my own Ancestors/Muertos, so again…there was a lot of my energy going into this. Very much like any sort of battery operated device like cameras and cell phones, I have discovered that these spirits can drain my energy. All it seems to require is my presence for them to access it.
Now, given that we were working, I don’t mind so much. After all, there is a natural energy exchange. We asked, they took. I’m good with that. However…
There has just got to be a better way to recharge afterwards.
The next day was abominable. I was completely lethargic, and had that feeling in my throat that I always get when I’m vitamin-depleted. In addition, I had a few symptoms of dehydration. Hey…I’ve had one heckuva lesson on listening to your body over the last year to two, so I know these things. The dehydration made complete sense. We were in there faaaaaaaar too long (I have some overly-chatty Ancestors), and I didn’t have anything to drink for…probably upwards of four hours. No, we shouldn’t be working that long. I was cracking jokes about using a stopwatch next time. Whenever we do any sort of spirit work, we always figure we’ll be at it for maybe an hour or two…and four hours later (or worse), we’re still at it.
So, first solution is to find a way to time these workings so that we aren’t putting out too much all at once. Part of that will be reigning in my Ancestors. Between just setting the rules (which I haven’t really done up to this point, my bad), and more consistent interaction with them (so maybe they aren’t so completely verbose when I do talk to them?) I’m hoping that will naturally fix itself. And I’m only half-joking about timing it. I realize that these things go as long as they need to go. However, if we’d had some concept of time while we were in her ritual room, we’d have been able to confront the spirit we were working with and possibly bring the conversation to an end much sooner.
I haven’t been using the babushka lately, either. That’s something I’m probably going back to. The white handkerchief on the head (or white hat) is a tradition in most ADR beliefs. I’m not sure that it would necessarily curb the energy drain, but it will help me to keep my mind clearer and protect me from any gooky stuff I might run into in these activities, and always recommended. After all, it can’t hurt. There’s always cascarilla and Florida Water on hand as well, however I’ve found their use limited to getting rid of bad gunky stuff, not necessarily preventing energy drain or in any way reenergizing me.
So, my first plan is to curtail the energy output to begin with. Unfortunately, that doesn’t necessarily solve the energy drain afterward. Even with simpler workings, Sabbat circles for instance, I’ve ended drained and lethargic. As a comparison, I’m about as physically fit after spiritual work as I would have been after attending Grateful Dead concerts for a weekend–including all the illicit substances that I may or may not have participated in during those said concerts (pleading the 5th!). So that might give you an idea of my physical/mental state of being after performing spiritual work.
Other than that, let the experiments begin. I need to verify if these spiritual hangovers are a result of energy I’m hanging on to or a result of energy drained from me. The grounding methods may not be working because the reaction isn’t from energy I’m holding on to but from energy that’s actually drained from me. So I’m planning three sets of experiments. First, with grounding methods. Second, with preventing the energy drain in various ways (staying hydrated is at the top of this list! Lesson learnt!). Third to find methods to restore energy lost as efficiently as possible.
It may be that these activities will always drain me, and my best hope might be to mitigate the damages. Otherwise, the day after will always be horrible. Of course, as with many things in life, there might just be an adjustment curve. As I embark on more frequent and in-depth work, my system might develop a resistence to the energy drain that’s not been built up just yet. Sort of like the flu, I just need to let my body develop it’s own defense system. If that’s the case, this will get easier every time. If it doesn’t, I guess I can scrap that theory!
I’ll be doing some surfing over the next few days as well, to see if anyone else has addressed these issues. I simply can’t be the only person out there in this big, bad, world who’s had this problem.
And as always, if anyone has any suggestions, I’m more than interested! Let the grand experiments begin!
The whole “grounding” technique that’s commonly known throughout Wicca and Pagan circles has been little help. No amount of visualizing the energy going through my feet into the earth has seemed to work. Neither has eating…nor ahem marital bouncy-bouncy. <grin> Although that’s always fun, and not to be turned down. Yes, I’ve also tried tree-hugging, walking barefoot in the grass, and showers.
So I embark now in a stream of experiments designed to see if there are any other techniques that might work.